I came across this clip while thinking about what to submit to a grant application, and it was ridiculous but watching it made me start crying. I think this particular moment is the most fulfilled I have ever felt in my life, in the middle of all that sound, feeling like I'm in the center of some sort of light beam. I feel like I'm headed in that direction a lot more now again. It can be frightening at times, but I'm no longer afraid. Thrilling, but not scary.
This is my second week of taking my job as an artist seriously, and I love it so, so much. I wake up in the morning and I do morning routine stuff and I get ready (and I put on an outfit!! More on that later) and then I when the clock hits 10am I walk around the block, same route every morning, until I end up back at my house except this time I'm arriving at work. And then I work all day, until maybe 6:30 or so, and then I walk around the block again to walk "home from work". Honestly, it's been magical! I highly recommend it. And for the first time since graduating with my GAC I'm fully, fearlessly following what I feel is my calling. Did I weird you out yet with existentialism (not able to spell that word but auto correct helped me out thank you)?? No? Haha. But yeah. It's very serious.
AND ON THAT NOTE I SAY BYE BYYYYYEEE!!!!!!!